It has been a while.
Well, everything has over now; as in END. Every single highschool stuff, graduation and prom.. everything. I am officially not a highschool student anymore. I am nobody.
Seriously, I haven’t got into any university. I am having this test in like 4 days, studied a bit but every single time i try to… it suckk.. Like i keep getting different answers than the real one, but I am pretty sure that mine is right. I have no idea why i have to have the same idea as the question maker has. So that I can pretend to be like other people, with the same kind of thoughts ? Really ? I thought this country wanted to develop. How on earth can you guys develop if every single person has the same mindset as 20 years ago. C’mon dudeeee, time to grow.
I feel kinda twisted, I am not like a regular person. To be honest, there is some part of that resist going to college. I feel like I’m walking on another 1 billion other people’s path. I actually want to explore the world, see how it goes out there, in the wild or do much stuffs, before being drawn into the circle of city people life, you know…going to college, getting some job that bores you to death, being married having child grow old and die… without any twist in life….. Do you know what I actually want ?
1. Do dance-acting-sing course
2. Having a part time job at local radio station or make movies
3. Save the wild with WWF and GREENPEACE
4. Know as much people as I can and conquer my fear
5. Prepare my self to the real UNI life out there
I don’t know, just explore the world. Be out of the box. I feel bad tho, my dad ask me no matter what I need to go to university. They have paid a lot for this test alone, and I don’t want to let them down. I do want to study psychology, but I also want to explore the world. Do something outrageous, out of the box. I want my Life to be an Adventure.
Should I live up with people’s expectation or should I go with this crazy mind I have and follow my guts ?