Okay, after struggling with this feeling for a long time - i should write this down.
Exhausted. That’s the precise word to describe what I feel now. I utterly have no idea what to do now. I just know I do need help, encouragement, and massive team work also guidance. Please anyone please. HELP ME.
I am so tired of sacrificing my time, energy, brain, heart and soul to this project, but it seems like only few people actually care about this. I am so thankful for those people, but still.. They’re doing great in their subject, one of many subject. What about the other ? Why are they standing still without any willingness to move and work what they have taken responsibility of ?
What is the actual purpose for this event ? To raise money ? To mark our legacy in the school ? For prestige ? What ? Can anyone please help me to answer this particular question ? Furthermore, who actually will get the benefit from this project ? IT’S YOU !! all the 12 graders !! SO WHAT WRONG WITH PUTTING SOME EFFORT FOR YOUR OWN ADVANTAGE ?? All this sacrifices we did is for you, so you can pay less money for the annual book, for your prom, and also so you won’t be feel embarrassed for having such a chaotic force. See ? Still mad ?
Let’s make it really simple. I am so sorry for being selfish this time, but I learn nor how to prioritize. So, wanna make this ? WE CAN ! but every single one of you gotta work your butt off so this whole thing will work. I admit it was my fault as well not being a good coordinator. But please I need you guys to work and support what we, the leaders, do. I will try to manage things more, and to be more clear and assertive in every way, but I need you to trust me and do what I ask. I will trust you guys again too. I know we can. Our generation is full of people with ability but hasn’t got enough encouragement to show it off. So please, we are strong enough and we are good enough, it’s the matter of our mindset and believe wheter this will go or not.
On the other hand, if no one bother to work everything out, let’s get it done here. Create something new and simple or do nothing. Just pay more money for your book and prom that you ask from your parents because you’re a ‘parent money spender’ and not mature enough to give your own effort for your own need. Wishing you a good college live then. Hope you’ll survive. But also I’d like to say thank you so now I can pour my energy to people who suffer from disaster, to those who worth and need more.
Last but not least, to be honest up to this point, my excitement and passion for this project is like 20/100. Not good I know. I can only pray and wish to God that he’ll pour his love and spirit on me so that I can have faith again to believe that this will work. This project will make a statement that we are good enough and give a harshly amazing fight back in the end after all the words coming towards us.
FAITH AND HARD WORK WILL LEAD YOU EVERYWHERE-FAR.